My final cry towards my destiny

Ive been so hurt for the last few days-from 27th feb to be precise,
1.job-my teams non performance,my own cases not closed till today,dnt knw it they will happen at all,appa,amma and chithi r trying very hard for me(pl god atleast save me for the sake of them,frm 11 yrs till now-18 yrs they hav suffered because of me),i couldnt bear them toling for me........2. so far ive not considered abt my personal life-frm past june,now i feel so lonely -i dnt knw if i will survive -sethu poiduven polarukku,yaarachum kaapatha maatangalanu irukku,im crying aftr so many days,am so afraid of future,ive told anjaneyar to save me if he also couldnt save me...??